We have tried everything to get rid of suffering. We have gone everywhere to get rid of suffering. We have bought everything to get rid of it. We have ingested everything to get rid of it. Finally, when one has tried enough, there arises the possibility of spiritual maturity with the willingness to stop the futile attempt to get rid of it and, instead, to actually experience suffering. In that momentous instant, there is the realisation of that which is beyond suffering, of that which is untouched by suffering. There is the realisation of who one truly is.
This is an extract of some of what I shared about what we are doing in this creative playground on my Facebook page this morning. The quote above then popped up in my emails and it so beautifully summed up my experience and what I was trying to convey!
“Many of you know that I’ve spent a major part of the last 6 years (possibly more) trying to ‘fix’ myself. Constantly on the look for something to fill a massive hole – self-employment adventures, fitness challenges, endless ‘busy-ness’, food, food and more food and more personal development and searching into ways to ‘find my purpose’ and ‘become the best version” of myself than I care to think about.
And despite all the ‘deep work’ and bucketloads of strategies and tools, I was still often depressed, anxious, insecure and always feeling not good enough. On the face of it I believed that I had a good enough reason to feel this way and for a long time it really seemed as if juggling grief, parenting, working and all the accompanying ‘stuff’ was just too much to cope with and that I was doing a really rubbish job of it all.
(Even though other people didn’t see it that way and I’m grateful for that. I’ve always felt loved and I’m not writing this for anyone to say positive things to me- I do appreciate you all 😘😍)
The reason I’m writing this is because it’s so clear to me now that none of the things that happened on the outside was what was causing me to feel the way I did. And it’s not clear in the way that I’d heard it a million times before – I deeply see now that I was never broken, or even damaged, and that all of my experiences were a result of a misunderstanding I had about the way that being human works.
Understanding how the system (our human operating system!) works, has been life changing for me and so many other people. I have had simply beautiful conversations the last few days with some gorgeous humans – including a few who have done time in prison – all sharing how their lives have been transformed since seeing the simple truth that our experience of life comes from the inside out and not the outside in, as so commonly believed and unquestioned.
It’s the most hopeful direction I’ve found to look in with regards to mental health and I’m so excited to be talking about it because I want everyone to know!!”